I found a poem written by an FTM transsexual and I have found it to be heartwrenching. It's beautiful and I hope you will take the time to read and enjoy it. It was written by a transman named Diego.
I look in
the mirror but It's not me
I look at the person that they can't see.
The
church says no, you can't do that
you can't be Diego, or we'll turn our
backs.
We'll kick you out, there's no excuse,
you must stop dreaming,
there is no use.
You're not a boy, you're only a girl,
We don't care how
much you world will swirl.
With confusion and pain, you cannot change
your
gender is girl, anything else Is strange
and will not be tolerated within our
walls
you change yourself and we'll make you fall.
I have my dreams of
becoming a dad
and becoming a man but to them thats bad.
To them that's
wrong, but how can this be?
Doesnt god love everyone? Even me?
If he loves
me he'll want me to find my true self
If he loves me he knows me and knows
how I felt.
If he knew how I felt then he sees in my eye,
If he see's me
then why is he letting me cry?
To me, It's not just changing the way that I
dress,
It's letting me sleep at night, letting me rest.
Laying my head
down, feeling complete,
Introducing myself confidently to the people I
meet.
Going through life atleast knowing my name,
Atleast knowing my
identity without any shame.
Memories of pain, memories of sorrow,
Memores
of maybe having a different tomarrow.
Nothing has changed, and it never
will,
Seems like time has stopped and stood still.
I'll never get out of
here, look's like I'm stuck,
Wish life was fair, but I'm all out of
luck.
